I have absolutely no excuse as to why I've been missing. One of my goals for the year was to be more present and consistent with my posts and I've slacked. I really didn't want to give sub-par work and nothing was speaking to me. I didn't want to write about the same things everyone else was writing about and I really craved change. So I've been working on some things behind the scenes, one being the Manifestival that took place last month and gave me the creative jolt I needed. Then, life as we all knew it slowly began to change.
Our lives during the epidemic...
I took the week following the festival to rest. I've had lupus long enough that I know my body and wanted to avoid any chances of a flare. When the numbers of cases in the country started to climb I have to admit, as someone with a compromised immune system I was extremely concerned. This is Confessions of a Lovely Lupie so let's have a transparent moment. Only a couple of close friends know this, but last week my depression and anxiety decided to make a major appearance. It was so bad, I was cancelling plans left and right and couldn't get out of bed. So imagine the way my mind was working watching the chaos of covid-19 and the way my peers were refusing to take it seriously. If I had to be around someone I would think of everyone they had possibly been around and then everyone I had no clue of knowing those people had been around and so on and so forth. And now, with one of my lupus friends being infected, I hope people understand why I was so "paranoid". Thankfully, my mental health is in a much better place, but I am still choosing to self-isolate for my own safety as the numbers of those infected are growing at exponential rates. Me and my weak ass immune system shall take no chances.
Want to help?
STAY HOME!!!! I'm not even gonna lie, I've been offended by some of the lack of f**ks given. I had to tell a friend to consider me and he said "dang, I ain't even thought about that"....that's when I had to remember some people really do just live in their bubble, even though the media has mentioned it over and over again. So now I ask, please remember those us who have compromised immune systems, your grandparents, elderly neighbors or relatives, children. You have NO WAY of accounting for every person you come in contact with, who they come in contact with, who they come in contact with....you follow me? You could think you're fine not knowing that your homegirl you just were with actually got it from there person she was next to at the gym last week and she's asymptomatic.
If you are someone with a compromised immune system please make sure you are taking care of yourself. Stay inside, take your meds and vitamins, stay active, and keep your spirits high. One of the meds they are using to cure the virus is a lupus medication, so I suggest making sure you have a full supply of all of your prescriptions before they are difficult to get. This will all be over soon. Turn off the news and stay off of social media if you need to. I learned sometimes you need a break for reality. Do whatever you need to to make you smile. We got this!!
Until next time,
Curls n' Cocktails